Going through all of my old photos has been such a journey. I have been blessed with so many good times over the years...lots of adventures, travels, love, friendships, fearlessness...times I would never replace, but choose to live again!
I also found my baby photos. And, lots of childhood photos of my sisters, mother and father. Life as a child was good...really good. The occasions caught on film after all of these years jogged my memory and took me on particular adventures once again.
It is amazing the difference between my childhood years, my life during my 8 year college stint vs my life in the professional and "adult" world. Worlds apart! I wish I would have stayed free-spirited throughout the years.
But, you grow up, have to become (at the very least reasonably) responsible, get a job and somehow become cynical along the way...influenced by people, begin to worry and care about what others think about you, allow yourself to believe you are what you aren't or what others think of you, blah, blah, blah and get sucked into a world of everyone’s confusion, fear and negativity.
I have always believed that what once was can be again. For some reason I stopped believing and stopped “living” as I was intended to live. It is easier to be sucked into becoming a negative person than positive and to live in fear than love.
Well…seeing all of the photos of my mother made me really miss her. She was so beautiful inside and out. Although I may not remember the shape of her teeth, the smell of her hair, and the sound of her voice…I certainly remember the things she taught me about life and people. She was wise beyond her years.
My constant thought over the last couple of days has been to RELAX, enjoy and strive to be more like the woman that my mother was. She lived in faith - not fear, never strayed from what she believed in regardless of what others thought of her. She lived her years to the fullest and I want to be able to say and do the same thing for our little girl.
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